When we grow older, the decision process will get tougher and longer. There are so many things to consider.


I am in an extreme confuse stage now. To go or not to go…. And there are so many IF….

I need to talk to someone and I need advice and support. At this moment, I miss a friend who I trusted a lots. Feel like calling him but I didn’t. Maybe he does not wish to hear from me at all. He always ensure me things will be alright and he has never feel to support me with prayer and encouragement. Well, those are the days. Certain thing I will never understand from the Man point of view. Why can a man and woman be good friend? Perhaps I am just too greedy and selfish.

3 months from now… Every day is a struggle.. moment to moment… Who can give me an answer? My brother said, you make your own decision and don’t be sorry or regret for your decision. So what? Is that an answer? Guess I am wanting for “someone” to ensure and trust me for doing the right choice. And that person is my dearest MOTHER.