3 more days to a whole new year - 2012. Hmm... A little emo
Tonight. Has been thinking.. What have I achieved in 2011? What's new year resolution should I set? Looking back at my archive and realized I haven done much every year. For a simple reason... Lack of determination.

Dig out the last letter that I wrote to Sensei and reminded myself on the resolution that I have set forth.

Hannie! Just do it. Didn't I want to live to the fullest? Didn't I want to win in life? Didn't I want no regret in life? Didn't I have have made my vow?

Enough is enough.. No more excuses and excuses.... 2012 is the year! A whole new and big year for me!

I had a really bad day today and feeling damn lousy.

My dear brother has make me so worry about him and I am so upset and disappointed with what he has done. I know everyone could has gone though this and learn from their mistake. But he shouldn't has made the same mistake :(

I just have to accept that this is my blardy karma that I have to accept and change it. When will I have peace and they will no longer make me worry?

Even I know the reason and I know I should go back to prayer. But I just cannot help it but feeling helpless now at this moment :(

I am officially a Singaporean today. Gotten my Singapore passport today. I feel a bit funny when I saw my nationality as citizen of Singapore. I guess it's the matter of getting used to it?

I am looking forward to chop my 1st stamp. When and where will it be? USA? Back to Malaysia? Or some where else?

What have been done is done. I will hope for the best in front of me. 화이팅.

Cannot agree more about this article! I don't want to die young!! I should do something about my health!!!

Today Shane and Diva last minute call me up for a short trip on this coming weekend. There will be a international surfing competition in Malaysia. I was quite excited about this trip. Before we book our ticket, I got to apply for my leave. Guess what, my FOS boss rejected my leave! Wth... This is the first time I got rejected in my entire working life. Reason she give was... I need the revenue... I cannot afford to let you go! Hell not! What can I do in these 2 days? If I am that good and can bring in sales by just sitting in the office, then I should be the sales & marketing director of CCS.

Frankly speaking, I won't get so angry and frustrated if she give me another reason like.. There are 3 persons from sales are going on leave, I can't have half of the team not around. Doesn't this sound much bette? She just simply choose to step on my landmine especially during my time of the month!

Am I too difficult? I doubt so.. We just have the karmic bond and she can simply driving me nuts!

Okay.. I shall think positively.. Maybe she is my guardian angel.. Ha! Ha! She could have done good for me to avoid some shitty things that might happen in the trip. She is helping me to save up my money.. She is ..... Hmmmmm... What else? Positive, positive..

Finally, my mom has granted me the permission to explore my next stop in life. I am really looking forward to it.

I can't help it but having the mix feeling about my next stop. Excited yet worry. Whatever it is... I will still do it. We only live for once... Why hesitate?

看着窗外，
满怀着期待，
捡起一直搁着的勇气，
带着我的信心和确信。

下一站，相信有奇迹。